seemingly absurd
suddenly, i have decided to be student once more. like a real student at a real university. i have been accepted, my fasfa is submitted, financial aid is being worked on, and my file is going up to be reviewed by the fontbonne scholarship committee. it still sounds pretty much insane to me, but for one reason or another, it just felt…right. i applied there 2 1/2 years ago, and then my accident happened and i dropped the idea of school. until now. i guess it just wasn’t supposed to happen then. not to mention i still had no clue what to study. but out of no where it hit me this time: social work. coincidentally, fontbonne just added a social work program to their list of undergraduate degrees. and so it went. not that everything is all said and done. it’s only a fraction of the things that will have to happen or change. and the scary part is that i don’t even know the half of what those things will be or what my life will look like when august rolls around and school starts. i have no clue if i’ll have day or evening classes, if i’ll have the same job or even be able to work full-time at all, what my finances will look like, or if i’ll be able to move out because of the former things i just listed. i mean i’m excited to do this and to be studying something i’m actually passionate about, but don’t get me wrong…it kind of scares the #?%@! out of me. but i guess only time will tell how things roll out and in the mean time, i’ll just be trying to figure out how to trust god and his [sometimes seemingly absurd] plans…
